Around Easter I received an e-mail from a friend of mine. The e-mail was one of inspiration, I remember. However, that is all I really remember about the e-mail except for this:
“The will of God will never take you where the grace of God will not protect you.”
The meaning of these words used in the order they are; is the definition of faith. We are trusting God not to take us where we don’t feel we can belong but at the same time having faith that if God does take us to those uncomfortable places that he will protect us with his unwavering grace. This kind of faith came to me in small bursts when there was a great deal of stress in my life. Eventually it accumulated to the point that I could feel comfortable in a fellowship (bible-study get together) format. And as time progressed, we ended up going to the church this bible-study group is attached to. I hesitated because frankly, my past experiences with churches and JR left a very bitter taste in my mouth. I have come to learn that all though some Christians aren’t very Christian like there are good people if you give them the chance to show it.
In other words I must have faith; not just in God’s path for me but in the people he puts on that path to help me. The “help” though, and this is where the problem rises; isn’t necessarily helpful in the traditional sense of the word. Sometimes the help comes when we decide what not to do.
I firmly believe that God doesn’t give you more than you can handle even if you don’t think you can handle it. I know there are those that when tragedy strikes that walk away from God. I was one of those folks for the longest while. I like so many others blamed God for whatever adversity was striking our family. When JR was first diagnosed I blamed God for allowing this happen. I hadn’t come to the realization that it was man’s greed that caused JR’s “autistic” issues.
It has been my faith that has allowed me to see JR’s unique abilities as positives. My faith in God has, I have no doubt aided in helping to heal JR too. I have been fortunate to have many people set on my path to recover JR who have been very beneficial in obtaining the knowledge that I need in order to do just that.
There have been many benefits in putting my worries into the hands of the Lord. A descent nights sleep being a big one. Have faith and you will automatically be given the gift of hope.